*People following the WeightWatchers weight-loss programme can expect to lose 1 to 2 pounds per week. Lauren lost weight on a prior programme and is continuing on myWW™.
When you grow up with a twin, you get used to being compared to one another. My twin brother was the skinny one while I was a little overweight and very self-conscious. As a security blanket, I kept my hair really long in an effort to cover my face and balance out my body size.
Although I hovered around the same weight throughout my teens, I started to gain more in my mid-twenties. My family history was always on my mind: My grandpa passed away after having a heart attack at 51 years old, and my dad, who was diagnosed with cancer three times, had long struggled with his weight. He was a yo-yo dieter for most of his life and had heart issues and high blood pressure, conditions that unhealthy habits can instigate. Later in life, when he began working out and watching what he ate, he'd make a point to tell me, a subtle nudge to follow suit.
Having been a on-and-off WW member, I rejoined as a Core member after I gave birth to my first child in 2016. While the programme initially worked for me, I stopped tracking when I got pregnant again in 2017.
In the middle of that second pregnancy, my dad passed away. The sense of loss I felt was immeasurable; not only was my father gone, but I'd lost one of the few people who could empathise with my weight loss journey. Overwhelmed, I started eating my feelings. By the time my son was born in February 2018, I'd put on more than 5st, much more than most doctors recommended.
I downloaded the WW app before leaving the maternity ward. My “why,” or motivation for losing weight: I wanted to make my dad proud. I knew that taking care of myself would be a way to honour my his memory.
Going digital
During the first few weeks, while I was adjusting to being a parent of two and nursing, I focused on tracking what I ate rather than changing my habits. After six months, I switched off nursing mode (which gave me a higher SmartPoints® Budget), I started weighing and measuring my food to be more mindful of portions.
I also started following a new routine: Every night while watching TV, I’d pick out the recipes I’d make in the next few days and check the SmartPoints on my app.
To save trips to the supermarket with my sons, I’d add the ingredients to my online food shop for delivery or pick-up. Eventually, I developed a rotation of about 10 go-to recipes. What’s more, I stopped eating my sons’ half-eaten meals. Now my mantra is, “You’re not a garbage disposal.” I say it to myself every time I clear their plates.
What Lauren ate then vs. now
| Then | Now | |
|---|---|---|
Breakfast | Big bowls of cereal with whole milk; frozen waffles and sausage; or a breakfast sandwich | Scrambled or hard-boiled eggs with fruit and a light English muffin or a slice of light bread; or fat-free cottage cheese or Greek yogurt |
Lunch | Fast-food chicken nuggets, large French fries, and double-bacon cheeseburgers | A sandwich on a low-carb tortilla with spinach and chicken salad plus a bag of WW Salt and Vinegar Crisps, fruit |
Dinner | Pizza, burgers, steak with loaded mashed potatoes, or Mexican cheese enchiladas with chips and guacamole | Homemade pizza on naan with fat-free marinara sauce and cheese; or a spaghetti squash bowl with turkey |
Snacks | Crisps, cupcakes, cookies, and ice cream | Protein bars, mini pretzels, a WW Chocolate Caramel Mini Bar, or Greek yogurt with powdered peanut butter and sugar-free caramel sauce |
I love lasagne, so now I replace the noodles with cabbage leaves. I also make a quiche using a light tortilla instead of pie crust. My family loves it, and I love that I can still eat the things I enjoy.
I’ve also had dessert every single day since I’ve been on the plan. I often pre-track my treat first thing in the morning and work my day around it. Knowing that I have that planned treat coming after dinner makes it easier for me to stay on track during the day.
Seeing the bigger picture
While following the programme came easy to me, being a stay-at-home mum of two young kids was a challenge: I was in mum-mode 24/7. After more than a year on the programme, I still felt like I wasn’t completely taking care of myself. I’d let myself get overwhelmed, worrying about worst-case scenarios. Sometimes I’d still head to the drive-thru and eat in the parking lot, embarrassed by my pile of wrappers.
In February 2019, I decided to see a therapist. Talking out my feelings helped me realise that I wasn’t prioritising myself and was also using food as a coping mechanism when I was anxious, stressed, or upset. With his help, I’ve found ways to handle my feelings without food.
I’ve started to ask for help more often, hire a babysitter when I need to, call a girlfriend, or hang out with my mum. Or I do something just for me like ceramics or trying a new recipe and posting about it on my Instagram—follow me at @laurin_ww! I journal, make lists of things that I can accomplish, and stop to breathe when an anxious feeling bubbles up.
Getting to goal with myWW™
I was losing weight steadily when myWW came along at the end of 2019. Having already lost 5st 4lb,* I was a little bit apprehensive to make change at first. At the same time, I was only 5lb away from my goal and felt like switching things up could help me reach it. What’s more, I’d been defaulting to foods like chicken breasts or plain Greek yogurt instead of really thinking about what I was in the mood for. So I decided to try Green, which offers fewer ZeroPoint™ foods but a higher SmartPoints Budget.
I liked the freedom of having some foods I didn’t have to track or measure. But because tracking helps me control my portions, I didn't mind tracking everything else. I started having more chicken thighs and lean mince beef, and the variety kept me satisfied. In my first two weeks on Green, I lost 5lb* and reached my goal in November 2019!
Adjusting to life in maintenance mode
I like to focus on one behaviour change at a time. In the beginning, I really zeroed in on what I ate and staying within my SmartPoints Budget. Then I set out to get 10,000 steps a day by playing with my kids, cleaning, or running errands.
Now that I’ve reached my weight-loss goal, I signed up for a gym membership so I could take group classes at the local gym. I’ve also started going to WW Workshops. It feels good to sit, listen, and share with other adults since most of my time is spent with the three-and-under crowd. My favourite part of the Workshop is celebrating everyone’s successes; I could do it all day long.
Letting my hair down
Sticking with the programme has left me feeling empowered. There have been so many other things I've wanted to do and never followed through on. Reflecting on what I have accomplished feels incredible.
I've also made major strides beyond the scale. For instance, while I’d long hid behind my super-long hair and worried that cutting it would leave me vulnerable, once I lost the weight, I began to feel like my hair was wearing me. I cut off an entire foot of it, and I’ve never felt so liberated! Now I can finally say I feel confident - the most freeing feeling of all!
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